I always loved the outdoors and played endless pretend games...more often alone, on my grandparents' farm and in the forest behind my childhood home. We built tree houses.
My favorite pretending place was the old west and my favorite character to "become" was Annie Oakley.
I did have a pony and spent hours racing and shooting a pop gun at imaginary enemies, my heart pounding with excitement going somewhere where most could not follow.
I still can detach from the moment and live in my mind.
Books are the perfect stairway but solitude in the forest has much the same affect.
No...I never wished to "fit in" but finding a friend,kindred spirit,
validates me and is so rewarding.
Even the "crushes" I would have on people who I felt inspired by, who understood just a bit more, was brought to mind by the relationship with the teacher AND art in that film.
The whole philosophy of this tale of love,loss and imagination is MY story too.
“A human being is a part of a whole, called by us _universe_, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest… a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.” ~Albert Einstein
“Imagination is more important than knowledge”~Albert Einstein
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Only if you can Imagine…
I really have been very few places out of New York and New England. I always have wanted to see Canada. I've heard that the highways are clean and speed limits are unheard of.
My love of forests and wilderness would certainly be satisfied.
As for weather, I enjoy it really cool so North is always my favorite direction.
An excellent road trip is more about who you are with than where you're going.
My dog would absolutely be by my side and I have a few friends that I would enjoy as well.
No schedules, meals when hungry and stops as they seem interesting.
Well, I was just hanging out when I realized, I couldn't stretch my legs. As I pushed, I would roll. Odd but fun.
My first science experiment had proven that ," Every action has an equal and opposite reaction." Brilliant!
Sight was not possible and I remained unaware of it until a moment came, when I was so very crowded, I could not stand it! Call me claustrophobic but I am NOT happy.
Waves of energy pushed on me until...WOW! "Let there be light!"
Ouch...too bright.
Oh my! Approximately 14 pounds per square inch. Gravity...you are not my brother and you are very heavy.
Gosh...my skin is crawling. I am freezing!
Forget handing me around, somebody better cover me up.
Ugh...don't these morons know that washing me adds to the cold!
A piercing sound...did that come from me? Cool...this is going to be handy when I need something. Look at those big people scramble.
Why is everyone smiling...this has been the worst day ever!
If this is an example of birthdays...I think I'll pass on any more!
The very first law that came to mind is "Eminent Domain".
According to Wikipedia it is, " the inherent power of the state to seize a citizen's private property, expropriate property, or seize a citizen's rights in property with due monetary compensation, but without the owner's consent. The property is taken either for government use or by delegation to third parties who will devote it to public or civic use or, in some cases, economic development."
What the heck?
The proper exercise of this would be an all knowing, all loving god!
I've yet to meet a human being that qualifies for that position.
The State has proven it cares not for individual rights and the Legislature cares only for the almighty dollar. Yet, they are the deciders of who loses property?
A citizen who owns property should be subject to laws to maintain it but NOT at a threat to lose it. Certainly not at the judgment of the State.
"Due monetary compensation" is a bit, pathetically, vague.
Nowadays, more than ever, my trust in government and, it's interest in the individual, is very low.
Hate to have that kind of power in the hands of the State.
Remember that scene in City Slickers when Curly (the wise old cowboy) talked of being "in love" once?
He goes on to describe a beautiful woman who he spied hanging out her clothes. He never talked to her, yet he felt he'd fallen for her.
It was a windy day. I was a young mother in my late twenties. I had stopped by a local "Mom and Pop" store for milk and as I opened my door, a stack of papers fell out. The wind sent them flying. As I was chasing them, I was joined in the pursuit, by a handsome young man in a shirt and tie.
His eyes were intelligent and deep. He was a complete stranger.
As he handed me the papers he had saved, I felt like I was in a cartoon. It seemed like sparks were flying from our fingers!
There was a connection,an attraction, the likes I have never felt since. I could tell that he felt it too.
Embarrassed by this, we nodded good bye and he left.
Never did I see him again.
I felt, for a short time, that I had some how been unfaithful to my husband.
It was only one moment... but I had felt " in love".
In order to feel great joy, you have to feel sorrow.
When I was a small child, my mother could not allow me to watch Lassie.
Even before I could describe feelings, I had deep ones. When Lassie would whine, I would cry. At least, that's what I was told...
I do remember having blood drawn. I would break into tears so often that my mother took me to the doctor.
On the flipside, I felt excitement and joy over such simple things. I still do.
In artwork, one can not display light without darkness. Deep feelings have a wide spectrum.
Is it a curse? I would not trade that ability for anything.
Of course, when we are young, we believe everyone comes from the exact same place. It was not until recently that I discovered not everyone seems to have the same depth or ability to experience emotion.
This sounds hopelessly condescending...I do not mean to.
The creative spirit is based in emotion. The most creative of us have traditionally bordered on mental illness.(so we believe)
Who's to say that the "mentally ill" are not the enlightened ones?
After years spent feeling that I was responsible for anyone else but myself, I realized that's a bunch of bologna!
Parents can beat themselves into an early grave if they allow the actions of their adult kids to reflect upon them.
Really,I have much to be proud of but the notion that we can control the actions of anyone else is absurd.
We arrive alone...make friends,influence changes...then die, alone.
This is not meant to be a dark thought but one that is freeing.
Whenever, a situation arises I now think, "Do the best that you can." but then that's all anyone can do.
We need not take credit for anyone elses successes and surely don't deserve their shame IF we have done, what we consider, our best.
No excuses please...you know when you haven't lived up to "your best".
By reminding myself, that I only have control over my own actions,it gives me great power. It's hard to do "right" when we have others to take responsibility for.
Being alone and being lonely are not the same.
Take care of how YOU react and all the rest are just details.
When you send your preschoolers to day care, I hope you can trust the caregiver has a sense of humor!
One day I was asking my kids about what their parents do for a living. We were making books about ourselves and I wanted to know what they were hoping to be when they grew up. By the way,at that time, Batman was the overwhelming winner for career choice! I realized that the kids probably didn’t know exactly what their parents did and the, Art Linkletter in me,wanted to ask. (Art Linkletter was a TV personality who interviewed kids for a funny show called,”Kids say the Darndest Things” back in the day.)
The answers the kids gave to ,”What does your father do?” were cute. One young man’s answer stood out.
“What does your father do?” was my question.
“He hollers at my Mom.”
I decided to change the subject quickly.
“What does Mom do?”
“She cries.”
I knew this family and I assumed they had had a recent argument but I knew better than to suspect true abuse.
Grabbing the candles ...I know where they are even in the dark.
(I am assuming it's night time.)
Even though the power will probably be back on within the hour, everyone is instructed NOT to open the refrigerator= Conservation of the cold food.
Then we watch the light show from the storm. Keeping your hands away from the metal doors and storm window casings is a good idea and staying off the land line telephone too. I once watched a phone receiver knocked off of it's base from a lightening strike.
Of course, thunderstorms are short lived but the adventure in the dark is just beginning.
The shadow play with candlelight is our first sport. Hopefully, some of us have practiced our techniques and have new talent to share.
Next, word games...I'm Going on a Trip and Charades are very popular.
Hopefully, the power is STILL off. This is the point at which we talk...to each other. At first, it's similar to Plinky prompts but eventually it becomes a real sharing of feelings and ideas.
Certainly, the campfire chats of days-gone-by must have resembled this.
Kinda makes me pine for the simple times...
BAM!
Lights on...computer rebooting,phone ringing,and searching for the TV remote. Back to reality!
colourful autumn
On an especially hot night during July 1973. I was sleeping at my Aunt's house and I awoke in a sweat. For a moment, I didn't know where I was but the dream I had just experienced was all too clear...
My first pet was a gray and white long haired kitten that I named Jasper. He was my everything. My mom had allowed me to get him in May and I had really been missing him while visiting my Aunt!
My dream took place on the dead end street where I lived. I was walking along the road...I remember it was a cool day and the trees were in full Fall color.
A disturbance arose and a crowd of neighbors gathered looking into the wooded road's edge.
That is when I realized that it was my Jasper, lying lifeless, that they had gathered around.
I never saw his body...my mind couldn't bear that image. The place and the circumstance were very clear. He had been hit by a vehicle.
Now, covered in sweat and in the dark at my Aunt's house, I felt the pang of nausea that would have accompanied the event...had it really happened?
IT DIDN'T...whew.
I calmed myself and "chalked up" the ugly dream as a manifestation of my loneliness for my "baby'. Still rattled, I was able to fall asleep again.
That October,Friday the thirteenth, my Jasper was hit by a vehicle. Our attempts to save him did not work.
The place on my road was the same from that July dream...need I say more?
Ah...my first post on blogger and I'm using football terminology. Life and football are much alike. One must have goals to reach. You need blockers...no one gets through it on their own. Some might say their religion or scruples are the coach. Hopefully we are not ill often, but when we are,"Time OUT!" We reap the rewards and take the punishment for our actions..."15 yards for unnecessary roughness!" Certainly no one can argue against a good offense being the best defense, or maybe the other way around? We all hope to gain ground throughout life but all of us have fumbled once or twice.
So...I named my blog,"Just Punt" I am hardly ever serious and quite the procrastinator too. To me, every day is a new beginning and if you don't like what you see, try again tomorrow.